((narcoleptic4444)) I am so sorry to hear your story. It really saddens me that you heard your own abuse from when you were a baby. You have been through so much. I was abused as well by my mother and brother. Have you had any counseling? I didn't get any counseling until late in life and I wish I had of secured therapy for my own abuse much earlier. It affected my relationships as well. I really hope that you seek some kind of help for this. There is hope to overcome these memories. Regards.