Well at 6:30am he Skype messages me.
(In my note I told him I sought the advice of another therapist)

This is some of it.

Hi, I read your e-mail to the other therapist and I think it was very brave to speak about your vulnverability....
I think she explained it well, that a feeling of dependence is very similar to what a young infant feels when it depends on a parent/usually a mother.....
it feels like it will die if that person is gone...
does that sound right?
You never had that kind of attachment/connection growing up and so it makes sense that you feel almost a sickning feeling if the person you have developed trust with should no longer be there...
I'm so glad you were able to put this feeling in words and were so brave to speak for it.
How are you doing with having spoke for it now?

He also asked:
What site did you speak to that counselor that you wrote to....she seems quite good!
she seems to have a solid understanding of attachment...
you don't have to say if you don't want to...

This is how I answered it. Moonlitsky I hope that was ok?
She is very good.....she is someone that has come on to the forums to help us understand why we feel what we feel. I messaged her to see if she could help me. She was once just like us and then went to school and became a therapist. She didn't forget her roots.

I asked him if he was going to dump me as a client now and he said absolutely not and we will come up with some kind of a plan, in session to day, to help me work through this between sessions.