(((((((((((((((((Justy))))))))))))))

I know you're having a hard time right now. The lying is the worst part. I know with my own kids when they say mom whats wrong I always smile and say nothing. But they're kids and they should be allowed to be kids as long as possible. Really, when they're old enough to understand, they'll "get it". Don't beat yourself up so bad. (I know...it's really hard, and easier said than done. I know, trust me)
I really hope things start getting better for you real soon.

Take Care.