Long story short, I cut a mean person out of my life a while back and he said horrible things about me and even posted publicly the day I cut him off, "Take responsibility for your mental illness." Really? I take meds, see a psychiatrist and go to therapy every 3 weeks. I let him back into my life. Now he's getting mean again.
I'm afraid to cut him out of my life. I keep thinking, "Oh, forgive and forget." And, "What if it hurts him if I cut him off and ignore him?" I want to defend myself, but then he becomes enraged. When he's an asshole and someone calls him out on it, then they are the asshole. I've been obsessing about the terrible things he says to me and what he says about other people. I think I'm just going to ignore him, but for some reason I just keep going back for more torture. I think because cutting him off triggers my anxiety disorder and I get paranoid (I'm bipolar).
I'm really interested in seeing how other people have handled this type of situation.
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