T,
I'm kinda up in the air about what to talk about with you tomorrow. I want to address so much, but I'm not sure I will actually address any of it at all. There's the neediness & how to handle that, there's the direction we should take (trauma or interpersonal stuff), there's the looming ending, there's my feeling of needing to censor because I don't want to cause you too much stress... and there's the disappointment and my desire to run from you last week. I just don't know what to cover or how. Part of me also wants to bring up the barriers to therapy ever being really effective, but you can't help with the biggest one because we are time-limited. The trust that you will be there just isn't going to build in the next 7 sessions (and what would the point be anyway, becuase after that we are done).
I hate this so much. I'm just so tired of continually trying only to find I am spinning my wheels in the mud. I may gain an inch, but then I get stuck again and the jeep rocks back to the original position again. It's all getting very pointless...
(please don't hate me)
~t.w.o.