The post was not crazy, so don't worry about that. I know how much it can help to vent and to know that someone else knows what you are going through. And also to go back and read what you wrote...Sometimes for me it helps be see things in a more distant perspective so I can deal with them better. Write out a plan for finding the jacket if you need to. Call the places he has been since the last time you knew he had it. It has to be somewhere! Take the news about your father as it comes. You can do this.