You have been working with this t for a long time now, do you trust her with the depth of these feelings? These sound like very young feelings, unmet needs. It's important that you held and feel safe enough to let them out. It must be difficult to see a t that is the same age. I don't think I could say exactly how I feel in that situation but so far she has been able to meet you and contain your feelings. Transference is such a tricky subject.... I hope you will feel safe enough to work through them and to trust the process in knowing it's the right time.