Hey GrayGray,
Just want to let you know, your symptoms are normal. Definitely sounds like GAD and a pinch of PD and a squirt of OCD. Nothing to worry about, bud. So many people go through what you're going through and i'm one of them. I once had a constant fear of death. To this day I still believe that it was the last straw that began my first panic attack. Eventually you will get over it, no strings attached. I promise. And your fear of letting go, totally understandable! I used to keep empty bottles and other inatimate objects because I though they would feel bad and I would feel guilty for the rest of the day if I threw them out, no joke! One step that I would recommend would to see a therapist and start CBT, and if that doesn't work, go to a psychiatrist and get your hands on some SSRIs. Remember, people are out there to help. Hugs!