I had a meeting with my old boss today and the Head of Service. I had asked for this meeting, or so I thought, and I wanted HR there too. Old boss let me think today's meeting was the one I'd requested. When I got there, it was only him and the Head of Service and the meeting was at the request of the Head of Service.

Basically, I was presented with the option of either come back and work for us on a project well below your skills level and we will delay giving you your notice or if you don't come back then we will issue your notice as soon as we can. That sounds like a threat to me and it sounds illegal too. I asked that they give due consideration to my mental illness which means I can't go back to that office but I am happy to work elsewhere in the organisation. If they can't accommodate that request then I will ask my GP to sign me off on sick leave again.

The meeting ended with the Head of Service agreeing to look at options for extending my placement and to wait for advice from Occupational Health before making any further decisions. Old boss was remarkably silent throughout the whole process and gave me zero support.

I don't know what to make of all of this, obviously they can't make their minds up about whether they need me or not and I think they are tying themselves up in knots getting two separate processes mixed up. There is the process to deal with my mental illness and this is already in progress; then there is the regular redundancy process, which hasn't officially started yet. Threatening me with starting the redundancy process earlier because I'm too ill to go back to that office stinks of discrimination. I don't know whether to make a complaint now or to wait and see if their threats become more overt.

Strangely, I'm quite calm about all of this, I don't have the energy to get upset. I know I should be angry but the emotion just won't come.

Thanks for reading, I don't really have any other sounding board and writing it down here helps me process what is going on.