I was checking out the Garden subforum and cried.... actully my little (Jennifer) cried..... she wants to play but never had permission too.....

This saddens me terribly.... Never gave it much thought that I would have to give her permission.... Now I am angry with myself and not sure how to reassure her that it is ok.... or honestly, if I want too... but why? Why hold this back?

I mean I have had to assure her saftey but something as simple as playing..... I dont understand why this is a dilemna for me.... scared? probably.... opening up vulnerbility....probably....

maybe the next visit....