In fact, I made a stupid mistake before starting the meds; I didn't thought on asking my psychiatrist about important side effects nor she warned me more than consequences of leaving cold turkey. I asked her a weeks ago and decided to leave it.

About screaming and hitting... I'm not that energetic, but I get and share the idea of avoiding the emotional warehouse. I usually try to sublimate via writing/drawing or similar but I don't feel like I'm actually solving in full terms the problem but more of avoiding it to get worse (still better than nothing, certainly agree on that and it's a good piece of advice). In the end, I still wonder for a reason, because I wasn't like this a few years ago.