So I started college last month, I'm on premed and as crazy as it sounded I have no previous knowledge about anything, yet I had the naive belief I would get it once I started studying on this career.

When I chose Medicine I knew it was going to be hard, and it's all good with me, it was no problem to me, it was -as I put it- a challenge.
I was always the best at my school without making any effort at all.
As a side note I want to say I never got why people with low graders were possible. I am not smart, not even a little bit, I honestly -please know that I'm not lying- know absolutely nothing about anything.

So now that I'm here, are the finals are here. My classmates are so beyond smart, all of them, just today got a test and I scored 0, not even joking.
I can't comprehend anything, I can't keep a study-habit.
I am so stressed and sad and I can't put it together, I can't, my dad, he's never asked about my grades until now and I just don't know how to tell people I'm behind at everything.

I also want to get into a study group but I don't know how, specially because in this past month I've learnt nothing and I can't help others.
Been keeping my stupidness as a secret but yes everyone else in the group knows I'm the weakest, even the teachers, one of two have actually said to me I need an assessor more than the others but oh yes I can't pay for it. I tried to talk with the psychologist from our faculty, he's never there, so I'm probably going to miss this semester and start all over on August and I'm so sad I disappointed everyone and made them believe I was smart and responsible.