I tested my T. I started by opening up about facts. Then I opened up a little about feelings. Then I opened up about thoughts. I haven't opened up much about my past. I'm taking those topics as they come up. But I didn't just jump into the sensitive information. Each time I opened up about something, I would see how she reacted. If I was still safe and connected with her, I was willing to try more difficult topics.

But I did open up to my T (and Pdoc) that I had SI and SUI thoughts and a history of acting out on such thoughts from the start. It's is something that I have dealth with daily for the past 19 years. Everyone who is in my life knows, so if they couldn't accept it w/o overreacting, then they weren't the right fit for me. I lived with it for this long and am still here, so I feel I deserve a little bit of trust in this area.