Yeah. It's like two different girls during very difficult times in my life shown me. Never ever ever ever ever. Talk to anyone through friends or online. I've got tired being completely honest and open then get misunderstood finding out the person wasn't so nice or confused.
This has been an insecurity since as long as I can remember dating skills and communication is great but the other person seems to be always some weird ****ed up situation. I am seeing my therapist about this a new one, but I've hated my looks because of it so much for so frequently happening and all my relationships were through my shy efforts not me meeting someone and knowing them.
I do a fine job making effort but the rejection has relapsed on my anorexia habits. My depression is this issue, the loneliness is too much. I don't even want a gf just more friends girls make my body dysmorphia worse. When people say I look good it's hard for me to accept it I try to but I gets really hard to convince myself they're right. Its equivalent to explaining to a girl with anorexia she isn't fat when it comes to me.