hi skeletonheart
it would be very beneficial to seek professional help. it has nothing to do with being stupid. mental healht has nothing to do with intelligence. some very smart people are afflicted with emotional issues. the not remembering could be frontal lobe issues. there is help for all this. seek it. welcome to psych central. you will find we have several forums where you can post about your concerns and receive feedback from other members. you will get a lot of support here. again, welcome