I do trust t but I'm allergic to the word involuntary. Currently I'm not bad off (on my scale ) so that's why I'm not ip. I'm apparently just really disconnected from my feelings and actions right now. I'm petrified of the hospital. I depend on here to tell me when I'm really losing it. If I used the hospital for every time I did something impulsively stupid I'd live there. One thing I did notice it that I no longer have an AP prn for when I'm like this.