Ok.. So pretty much, I started talking to an online counsellor, weekly.. It, so far had been ok.. I don't really have the guts at the moment to see someon face to face. So this is what in trying first..
The first 2 sessions, we're slow, we didn't get anywhere really.. This one today, felt like we started getting somewhere.. As in I finally got to say something's that have been on my mind..
She told me, that at first it's likely, to feel worse before feeling better.. I guess that means we haven't really got anywhere. I feel the same..

Every week though, it seems like a struggle to make it a week without talking.. I just think. All the time, think about what I want to say, how I want the session to go.. All that..
Is that normal?
I just don't really know.. It like I'm just desperately waiting to talk again.. It's really weird for me.. I have absolutely never shared emotions like these with people before !