As everyone said, you're not stupid and getting some help with the blacking out and drifting off is really important. I will say one thing really, really concerned me though:
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Originally Posted by SkeletonHeart
... example, yesterday I couldnt even do the laundry right, made him so mad, he taught me three times in a row, and yet I couldnt remember how to do it, whats wrong with me? I always forget how to do somethings, if I was trying hard enough or put in more effort, they would say, then I wouldnt make so many mistakes.
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Did he tell you that you were doing the laundry wrong and that you needed to put in more effort? I may be wrong but when I hear about someone getting mad because a simple house chore was done "wrong" it immediately sounds mentally abusive. It's laundry, the only way to get it wrong that I know of is adding dirt. I doubt you are making mistakes in the way you're thinking and doubt you need to put in more effort.
Definitely find a doctor about the blacking out and memory loss. There are medical clinics and places that can help someone without insurance and such. Also, maybe talk with a therapist (again, there are centers that can work with you) to get some perspective.