I know in my panic to not come off as difficult and annoying, I do so anyway. I have this pattern. I try really hard to be good, but I end up screwing everthing up anyway.
I had all this stuff I wanted to bring to T today in an effort to help better understand things, but she looked sad and tired today, so I didn't bring anything to her. I couldn't even reality-check around the accuracy of my assessment of her, because I was worried it would be annoying or crossing a boundary.
Instead I spent the better part of the session checked-out and frustrating her...
I think I should just step away from therapy. I keep screwing things up, and making people mad at me. At least if I'm not there, that's one less relationship to bungle...