I'm sorry that everyone seems so unavailable to you right now.

I don't think you're too much at all! With the DBT T - it sounds like her boundary is consistent for everyone in the group. You could be the best, least needy, most absolutely loveable and wonderful and fantastic person in the world - and the boundary would still be there. It's not about you, it's about her...

I know, I know... logical stuff is all well and good, but doesn't make the emotional stuff any easier. And, I don't know a good way to make the emotional stuff easier, other than to accept that these people aren't currently available, and then try to see what you DO have access to.

You have us, here, for support. Can you boyfriend offer any support? Have you thought about any other live-chat type sites (or the chat functionality here, I haven't used it, but maybe it would help)? Like 7cupsoftea?

Do any of those sound helpful, or just worse (I get that trying to chat with strangers may feel more scary than supportive, since they don't know your full story).

Hang in there... you've been doing so much lately, you really do deserve some peaceful, restful, relaxing downtime.