Dear T,
Today sucked. I had such high hopes for being able to address things, but I couldn't get out of my own way. Then what you said about my inability to engage in session made me feel guilty. I want to run from therapy. I feel like I've failed.

I tried to communicate how scared I am of talking about some of this stuff, but because I didn't say "this is how it freightens me and this is why" I think you missed the reference...

We are SO not on the same page right now. Actually, I feel like we are not even on the same planet right now. I hope leaving you the message today will help. I hope that you can help me say what I need to say and move past this rut... I am stuck. I do need help getting out of it, but I don't need a day program right now. I need to figure out how to trust you and to feel safer with this talking thing...
(please don't hate me)
t.w.o.