I am obese, morbidly I think. I look in the mirror and I am really fat sitting down. My wife just lost weight and looks incredible, so I compare myself to her. I was the tall one that could hide the fat in loose clothing and jackets, now she is wearing tight fitting blouses and "skinny jeans". She looks fantastic.

I am not healthy, I work outside so I am not sedentary, but outside of work I do nothing, afraid to go out, I sit and play on the computer. I did most of my recovery of CSA and ASA from the computer chair, I hope to find a similar experience. I find I cannot read and learn, nor can I go anywhere, driving is overwhelming, but is necessary.

I tend to see myself as overwhelmed but productive, hoping someone realizes I am grossly underqualified for the work I am doing and relieves me of it, but then give me $30,000 to get out of debt. I need to save $1200 per month for retirement.., HAhahahahahahahahaha, whatever.

Where was I?

Sam