I hope It's just a big bump along the road for us. I remember, after my year long split from reality, I was thrown into the hospital against my will. Once there, I was put in the psychward where I met a manic girl. Everyone perceived her as trouble and avoided her. She was alienated and frustrated. In a room she flirted with me and asked me why I was there. I told her about my year long agonizing delusion, and she told me about her mania. I told her, "People aren't their disorders". Then, without hesitation, she said, "If it only takes a year to become great, isn't it worth it?" What a kind thing to say. Maybe it's all about finding meaning in our suffering. Buddha believed suffering is the path to wisdom. Nietzsche thought that it allowed us to see reality in a different light. When the oracle has failed us, the saints are silent, and god has chosen not to reveal himself, there in the darkness, in fear and frustration we turn on that light within.

After reading your post I feel connected to you Didgee.