Okay so he stopped you then.. He cant stop you now. Okay your upset , mad at yourself... but.. YOU can start making your life better. So go find a Pdoc and a T . You need to focus on being healthy for yourself and your baby ! Your baby needs a stable parent.

Therapy can help you find your self esteem and self worth again. Its perfectly okay to angry and feel overwhelmed! Therapy is going to help you unravel the angry and replace it with healthy ways to cope.

You deserve happiness.. But you have to work hard to find it