Freewill, stick to your guns. We've talked about all this before, you know your worth, its beyond description. Please don't give up. You as well as all of us have the strength and the power to get over our ED's. There is no tangible or ungodly thing in this whole world that can restrict us from that freedom.

There is an awesome quote I know and I think you should definetly take it into consideration.
"It takes courage to push yourself to places that you have never been before...to test your limits.....to break through barriers."

Keep holding on, always strive to do the best when you feel like you deserve the worst. Don't give up please, please.