Hi there,

For me, I think sometimes I get so familiar with a feeling that even though I don't like it - I won't let go of it.

For instance, years ago I truly believed that I would see dead people on the highway while driving. I don't know why - but as I drove I would obsess with looking at the grass next to the breakdown lane. My T asked if I felt responsible if there were dead people there and I said "of course I would be".

I didn't know why I felt that way, just like I didn't know why I always felt so guilty about everything. Responsible for everyone and everything. But I think it's because the way I conditioned myself for so many years.

You can break out of it but it takes alot of work and practice. You have to really challenge every thought you have. So if you're feeling guilty ask yourself why. If it's because you think you are responsible for something, ask yourself questions as if you were asking a best friend. If your advice to your best friend would be that they aren't responsible and shouldn't feel guilty, then that should be the same words you repeat to yourself.

Not sure if this makes sense, sometimes it's hard to put into words what I'm thinking.

Tranquility