The more I think about it the more I feel that the last few years of being unwell has closed my heart. Hw do you let love back in after being hurt so much and going through the traumas of regular horrible episodes and hopitalisations? Today I am very, very low. I feel like a am drowning in a deep, raging sea. I called my pdoc and therapists to see if they can help but I am waiting for calls back. What can be done anyway/ None of the treatment seems to get me out of mixed episodes for very long. I just go out of hospital and feel just as bad as before I went in. Am I now untreatable Is there any hope left for me