Thank you both.
The more time I've had to think about it, the more I'm confused by t's reaction to the session. The week before I had been able to admit to not really trusting being able to open up yet; that I wanted to, but fear kept me from being able to say anything. that session ended with me wanting to run from the office, though I wasn't quite sure why. I had intended to talk to her about it yesterday, but she had just returned from a sudden trip (no idea what she left for), and she looked like she was going to cry as she took me back. That triggered a need to walk on eggshells around her, so much so that I couldn't even ask if my interpretation of her was correct. So I couldn't ask or say much of anything in session.

This morning, I'm thinking her assessment was unfair. We had talked about coping this week. I realized I hadn't used any negative coping skills at all despite being really triggered. I don't think she heard that (or registered it) because she went on to say that I was looking and coping worse as therapy progressed... um? No. Except I didn't know how to be assertive around that in the moment.
on the one hand she says she sees me "trying" yet she doesn't acknowledge any actual progress...
I dunno. I'm hoping whatever she was out for the entire week between sessions threw her off and made them worse. I'm hoping this isn't going to be how I totally screw up another therapy relationship.