healingme4me, yes, little changes do make a new life in time, especially journaling in a diary or calender. My overwhelming issue is that the triggers I am experience seem to overwhelm my desire for self control, then I find myself with empty packages and dirty plates all around me. It's like I am more than one person, when another one takes over, I am not the person I want to be. I have started though, I am here, looking for support, that is hopefully the path to a new habit.

Lexi232, Thank you for replying. I am not on any medication, I will check out aspergers. Ok, I did the screening here at PC. According to the screening and I understand it is not a diagnosis, I am the highest level of "possibly autistic", one point away from "probably". Wow. Thank you for the idea and thanks to PC for the screening. This is something to pursue on this healthy path.