There is an old saying...in order to HAVE a friend you have to BE a friend..cliche...I know, but true. School is important, but emotional intelligence is even MORE important.

You might try volunteering......at a shelter or retirement home, where the elderly (a lot of them) have no one........that puts things in perspective....Once we take ourselves out of ourselves....

There are s o many people who need love and compassion on the planet....people respond to others who they feel are "safe" people those who present themselves as authentic, etc.......showing an interest in someone....asking questions about that person.....a good beginning to making a friend.

P.S. I am concerned about your comment about not......killing yourself.....it sounds as if your "desire for success"" outweighs your wish to be social or make a friend? Counseling might help.