I have been married to this man many years,he comes from a family of constant talkers.They never stop talking,one always has to talk louder than the others.He has a problem with anger & has no reason to be angry.Days pass & he is fine then out of nowhere hes cussing & fuming about past jobs ,people he has known,the news.We never know what to expect & I have lived on edge for years.When our kids were small he would throw things & become angry for no reason.To this day the now grown up kids do not like to be near him.We love him dearly but he has pushed us away because we never know what to expect from him & it hurts.I am sure he loves us to.He would never see a doctor for this,& I dont even know what his disorder would be called.He smokes 2 packs a day, drinks coffee constantly,over eats when he does eat.sleeps all day & makes it impossible for people at home to sleep at night.He fusses at the pets,plays the radio or on the computer at night.There is no subject under the sun we can talk to him about because he goes off the deep end & talks for hours on just about anything we say.I just want to crawl under a rock & stay there.If I did sit him down & have a talk about how he makes us cringe he would be so mad & I just cant deal with his anger.we have never had a decent conversation that I remember.I have spent a lifetime trying to stay one jump ahead to keep order & make things go smoothly.I am getting old & tired.
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