I've been thinking about something that was discussed in therapy on Tuesday... and just can't see it her way. Does anyone else see their sessions as one STABLE thing in your life? And see that as a plus? It's the one thing you know will be there, one thing you can depend on, when everything else is just chaos. I guess in a way, I see it that way. I plan my life around my sessions....I don't think that's pathetic, it's just that you know on this day or that day, I am unavailable for other things. I'm committed.

My T is dealing with personal issues right now, and has had to cancel, delay or reschedule sessions. Luckily I had notice with most of them. She's sincerely apologetic, she's been in practice over 20 years, and said never, until now, has her personal life affected her professional life, so this is all new to her as well. So there is a great deal of uncertainty in her schedule right now.

But she said this is not all bad, that life doesn't just stop when we need it to, so it's basically a learning experience. (I'm totally paraphrasing). She is right, of course, but when therapy is pretty much the only thing that's "for sure" right now...it's hard when it's thrown into the uncertainty pot with everything else.

I'm not asking who's right....it doesn't matter, it is what it is. I guess I'm just speaking some thoughts out loud. I had a chiro appt this morning, and he had a no call no show before me. So he was just chatty, and brought that up, then how he handles it, and then went on to talk about cancelations. That he lets go of "repeat offenders" eventually. That he doesn't cancel without 24 hours notice, ever. (well, hasn't yet, but there would be exceptions of course!) I mentioned to him, because I trust him and have known him a long time, that I'm in therapy, and since the beginning of the year have been dealing with a schedule that hangs in the balance. Depends on the day, so to speak. He said that's not right. Especially in mental health. I actually defended my T without telling him any details, because hey, ***t happens. But deep down I want to feel like he does.

My life has been so up in the air.... that's really why I started therapy. Now therapy is up in the air too.