Avoidant people have low self esteem, as you know. Other's perceptions of me have way way too much influence on me.

I can read micro expressions on people's faces, so it's almost like I can read people's minds. (Comes in handy when teaching; I can tell without asking if my students understand or not.) The thing is, I can see if strangers react to me, and when they do, people I've never talked to before, they can impact my mood. Classic avoidance.

If I feel like someone is judging me in the slightest bit, I can't tolerate it. And if it appears that someone feels like I have judged them, I also can't tolerate it. It will throw me into a pit so fast it would make your head spin.