I see you 0% avoidant and really strong borderline. I'm not a doctor, but I can tell a cat from a dog, you know? The problem when you are undiagnosed and untreated is that it does take over all of you. You could be the sweetest person who ever existed and it won't matter one bit - you're consumed in the fog and you'll never be able to get out on your own.

The labels don't matter. The therapy does. Being aware of how you react to people because of your mental state, and adjusting for it, is important.

Right now, I'm in an avoidant crisis. I can't see how the world has space for me. I can't understand how anyone could tolerate me, let alone want to spend time with me. Anyone else on the planet would be a better choice than me.

Alright, fine, I can think that way... until I interact with someone who does care about me. To them, how I'm thinking about myself is downright insulting. If I say, I'm sure there's someone better for you to be with right now, they hear that as rejection. It's not. It's me thinking I'm worthless, horrible, a waste of life, and a burden on everyone who ever existed. In other words, avoidant.

There is no therapy that will counteract true avoidant feelings. You just have to learn to suck it up and live with it. There is therapy for borderlines. If I had a choice, I would jump ship in an instant. But I don't. And neither do you. So get reevaluated, stop worrying about the stupid alphabet soup, and get better.