For a few years I was dealing with depression, low self esteem and anxiety. In the past year I've managed to deal with and move on from a lot of this, but things lately feel too good to be true. School is going well for me, I have great friends, and taking steps towards a relationship (it's kind of complicated).
I always feel that something is going to go wrong, that I'm going to loose these people, that they're going to hurt me, or that nothing is really real. I just feel like a lot of things in my life are fake, because it's going well. My self esteem varies, so some days I won't worry about this, some days I'll be so paranoid that it partially negatively effects the relationships I have with others.
With this one particular guy, I feel scared to talk to him in person because I think that I'll say something stupid or he'll think that I have too many issues and realize I'm not as great as he thinks.
I plan on talking to my school counselor in order to get help dealing with this, but I'm kind of looking for ideas that can help when I'm unable to, because I currently don't know how to deal with this.