Feel better today-I was soooo depressed yesterday-have been denying the depression cause it just seems not possible with all that I do to counteract it & all the meds how can it freakin come back-grrrrrrr. Intense but positive session with my tdoc-going to work on a plan to really take some time off for me like for real-he wants me to take a consecutive week-wow 7 days off to just spend me time-eeeeek-I have to keep whacking my depression cause it keeps yelling in my ear I'm not worthy of taking time for myself & I don't deserve it & all that crap-stupid #%$@^%!!! depression. So it feels good to have a better day & get some sunshine & enjoy a nice slow walk & watch the water & the birds & some little fish in the tidepools. Whew this is so much sometimes but I know it will pass-take care all & big hugs