More big hugs! I agree! You should not sell yourself short. You have to know that being told 'I love you' is not the same as if someone actually does. Love in action is made of wonderful things. Small things that show you care, like turning down the bed at night, prepping the coffee for morning, a small gift when you aren't expecting it, or even help with the groceries without having to have been asked. Someone who treats you as if you are special is love, not being able to utter a few words. I hope you see this soon, I know the pain will last a long while tho. Do something nice for yourself...a new hairdo, a mani, or even an evening in with yourself and a good book. Hugs are with you.