Welcome to Psych Central fizzie kid. Sorry you are feeling stuck in a pattern. This has happened to me where I left one relationship for another and the problems I had in the first one seemed to come along in my baggage.

One forum that might be of interest
Addictions - Forums at Psych Central

http://forums.psychcentral.com

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