I think that you very much do care what happens to you. This doesn't sound like one last attempt for payback, but a very sad and lonely cry for help. **** your family, they sound like they aren't worth caring about. Take those strong emotions and turn them into something you can use. You sound like an incredibly powerful person that could whatever they want, so no one should be able to stop you. Please don't go down quietly, you still have so much fight left in you. If you need revenge, do it in the form of success. Be someone so d*** great that anyone who has ever saddened you wishes that they are you. I already care about you dearly and I only just met you, so feel free to message me whenever. I hope I didn't overstep my boundaries, I just wish the best.