I don't think jacky8807 was doubting your symptoms as much as offering you emotional support and suggesting you seek help for those homicidal thoughts. That's all. Please don't assume we're against you here. Most all of us are going to be on your side!!

Here's another hug for you

I understand your frustration. Before I was DX'd with Celiac disease, it was very frustrating when family members didn't take my physical symptoms seriously. It's still hard for some people who know me to understand how much trouble gluten can give me, but I try to forgive them (Can be hard at times, for sure!) and chalk it up to not knowing much about the disorder.

Best of luck to you. Autoimmune disorders, like lupus, can be very, very hard to diagnose, and I hope you find an understanding doctor who can get to the bottom of what's causing the symptoms, regardless of what it ends up being the cause.