OK, got caught up. I totally get where you're coming from, and it sounds like you put a lot of good thought into the situation. You're doing some really difficult work and dealing with tough subject matter. And it might feel like like lately you're experiencing and expressing more needs than you're used to experiencing/expressing, but no, it doesn't make you especially needy. I think most people grappling with this kind of stuff would be feeling similarly. Props for having the ability to really hold and examine your (and your T's) situation from so many angles!