Wellbutrin helped me have a sex drive pretty much whenever. I miss that stuff so much. Now they think it makes me go manic, so I can't be on it. Hoping I can be once I have a good mood stabilizer in place.

I think even without it, though, I'm somewhat like this. I'll still indulge, but I'll feel INSANELY guilty about it when I'm depressed. Sometimes I trick myself and tell myself it won't and it won't be a big deal, but the high is only ever short-lived. I feel like since I've weened myself off all substances, I find myself turning to sex more, or mostly, self pleasure because I don't want to go down the random person route again, and I'm not in a relationship.