Honestly I don't think this is Bipolar yanking your chain ,,I think its just your life right now , its a mess.. Your hubby's addiction , your job, your financially in a hellish struggle, You are trying to do everything , lots of balls to keep up in the air and not on the ground. Of course your questioning .. Is this as good as it will get? I know I would be asking myself this.

Is there a reason your husband isn't working right now? Is he keeping up on his responsibility in your marriage ? no he isn't , he's not being supportive. Can you have a talk with him about how his remarks are not helping you in fact are making you feel even worse.

I think it's great that even though you have no desire to play with your son , your doing it anyway because you didn't get that.. This is a huge thing . So pat yourself on the back, Don't allow your mind to walk you into a corner.

Do what you can, no more. Do only what has to be done. Please be kind to yourself and if needing to sleep more to be able to manage all the must do's then sleep.