I have been depressed since I was about 14 years old. I'm now in my early 20s and I am so sick and tired of it. It's ruined my life, it has robbed me of enjoying what were supposed to be the best and most carefree years of my life. My depression issues have caused me to hide away in my home for long periods of time, caused me to take jobs that I didn't want because I felt like I couldn't handle the jobs I did want, caused me to not go to college because of the fear, caused me to break up with boyfriends, caused me to not have any friends.
I'm at a turning point in my life where I'm just so sick of depression knocking me around like an abusive person, holding me back from being the person I know I am deep down inside which is a happy, exciting, bubbly individual. I haven't been that person in many years. I feel like she died - and this unhappy miserable person took her place.

Is it possible to be so sick and tired of depression that you just say F it and become happy? Because I'm at that point. I've just gotten so sad and so low that the only other way to go is up, because I have nothing else in me to give to depression. Kind of like when you're hurting so bad, for so long, that the only thing to do is laugh.
Being depressed takes way too much energy.