Hello clwcommander45: Yes, it's perfectly okay to vent & ramble here on PC. We all do it from time-to-time. The only thing I would say is don't let your posts get too long. (This one isn't.) The really long posts members sometimes put up tend to get fewer replies. It sounds as though you've been through difficult times. I have not been employed for a good 15 years or so. I've now aged into retirement. It has been difficult, but I have been fortunate to have not lost my wife or our home. Hopefully things will begin to look up for you.