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Don't forget that any single session/action is not the whole of your therapy or relationship with either your husband or therapist. I think in your situation I would have gotten up and left rather than been distracted by staying and having the fantasy. Or, I would have shared my fantasy? If they don't know you got tired/disgusted/angry/hurt with them, how does that help the communications/relationship with your counselor or your husband?

Always being a "good girl" and saying or doing what others want or expect me to instead of exploring what I personally feel about a situation while I am in it doesn't work for me. How is cancelling your session now, with no "discussion" help you? I think walking out and getting accross that you were too tired, too hurt, too fragile, too whatever would at least have "communicated" something of what was going on when it was going on? Then you could have gone back today with a known "mission"/program :-)