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Originally Posted by ScarletPimpernel
Yeah. I don't like spending time with Scarlet  I often wish for a vacation away from myself. I have difficulty understanding why anyone else would also want to spend time with me. I have been alone most my life: physically, emotionally... Yes, I have low self-esteem and need to work on that somehow... I value myself based on the value others I care about see in me. It's like I'm blind so I need them to tell me the type of person I am. I'm not saying this is healthy. I do need to become my own friend. How to do that? Idk. |
Is there anything you do enjoy or like about yourself? Even if it stems from the value of you that others tell you, that's a starting point - it sounds like perhaps nobody reinforced the lovely things about you when you were tiny, so (for now) you need others to show you that about yourself.
So as a first step, maybe you could think on a few of the positive things people tell you about why they love you? Writing them down, so you can see it in bold black and white, might help.