Christiana X

Caring for a sick husband is hard enough without all the guilt snd baggage you have over him.

Is Mr f being understanding of what's going on? I don't rember reading about whether he is jealous of yr husband or offering u help... You need supportive people around u and ur daughter!

Like the member above says, I'd be starting the "finding a therapist" process as soon as possible! Do u have a medical doctor u trust to refer u to one? Sometimes hospitals offer Counselling to family members who are supporting ill family. Maybe if you meet with one of them, THEY could refer u to a therapist who is better able to deal with yr range of issues?

(Try not to cut again... Once u do it a few times it can become a bit addictive! A therapist/doctor might be able to give u something for the anxiety/depression - So u can think straight!)

Good luck