Sounds like not a good fit between you and your T. Change is hard and I find it hard to envisage ever being any different.

I have been seeing my T for 5 years and I know they would want to explore why I feel I can't change rather than suggesting I stop going.

Is not the fact that you are turning up showing that you do want to do some work?

Hope you can find a different T.

Don't let this one stop you.

Soup