Hello, I have been on the other end of your issue. My husband has been addicted to porn and has been messaging other women online for most of our married life which has been extremely hurtful and distressing to both myself and my children so I understand where Fitz is right now emotionally. I kicked my husband out of our marital home and never wanted to talk to him again, but there is light at the end of the tunnel. My husband has joined Sex addicts anonymous through church which is a free service even though he is not religious. He has admitted that he is an addict and has been for over twenty years which was unknown to me. The fact that you are here on this forum proves that you want to get help with your issues. My husband have spoken more this past week about his problems than in our whole lifetime together and it has helped me emotionally understand why he acted out. You obviously have issues that need to deal with and there is help out there. I googled sex addiction and that helped me understand why my husband has behaved so destructively in the past. I would also suggest you enquire about why you struggle socially. From your thread you remind me of my son who is on the autistic spectrum. You need to understand why you behave the way you do and this is the right place to start. Let your man know that what you have done was wrong and that you are getting help to understand why you have behaved in this way. Love doesn't dissappear in a week. He is just hurting and wants you to feel as hurt as he does hence why he doesn't want to hear from you just yet. I didn't speak to my husband for a over a month and ignored every letter email and text that he sent but that didn't mean that I stopped loving him. He has had his self esteem knocked and it will take time for that to be restored. Self help yourself if you cannot find affordable help. I wish you all the best in the future. I hope my reply has helped. Kind regards Lolo x